Where have I been?

Some of you might notice a significant decrease of blog post compared to last year. So, what the heck happened to the industrious Saltnpaper? Where are the fun new paper toys? Was I abducted by gooey alien? Lost in the tropical rain forest?

For these last few months I have been taking a break from papertoy scene, especially the online papertoy scene. Not that I hate it or anything, it's just that I want to be able to see this paper toy world with new perspective in mind. During this break I get to meet people through some events , I would like to say many thanks if you were one of the people that I met. It's really nice to actually talk and know more about what you think of my papertoy characters. Not that I don't like my fellow blog reader, but I have to admit internet is kinda cold and quiet compared to the real world (a simple 'hello you' comment is like a warm sunshine here, please do so to make me smile ;D)

Anyway, after venturing various toy scenes I also met some interesting fellow toy designers. One of them is from Plastic Culture , they are one of the pioneer to introduce designer toys to the Indonesian audience. Being offered to be one of the resident artist for them really pushed me to a whole new world that I have never been to. Doing various paintings, customizing toys, making linoprint... A great deal of experimentation I would say.

Now to get back to this Saltnpaper papertoy blog. After seeing that exciting stuff that have been happening out there, I think it's fair enough to bring the non papertoy related stuff here. I promise to only post the coolest stuff here though...

One last thing, I actually got these halfdone papertoys design in hand. Which one would you like me to upload first? A sleeping bunny, a cape superhero or a sitting mole? Remember, don't be shy to leave a comment ;)

The Departure

The ICU chapter is finally over and the funeral went well. I still remember the moment when my father's heartbeat dropped second by second on the ECG monitor, it's like watching new year's eve countdown on TV, instead this time it's very calm and quiet. I must say the room is suddenly filled with the kind of composed quietness that I never felt before. Especially after the good doctor and nurses perform their final duty and close the door.

The funeral was attended with at least 400 guests, I'm sure my father will be very happy to know the guest list. Some guests reveal funny little secrets about my father, some shares good advices, some offered amazing supports and overall it created a good farewell mood.

Now... I'm sure there are plenty of you who are hungry for a new paper toy, please wait a little longer while I 'cook' something for you all.

The Condition

These months have been one of the toughest months to endure. My father's condition is inevitably leading to the end. I once pray to God about 2 years ago to lengthen his life because I'm not ready & I want to know my father more. My prayer was granted.

Today, I sit here with a better understanding toward my father. Seeing him in great agony fighting his spreading cancer and complication from day to day, week to week, month to month is really heartbreaking. As the eldest in Asian family, I'm expected to perform my best to escort my Mom and siblings through this 'adventure'. Sometime it's tempting to think about my ex, thinking maybe I would feel better and stronger if she is around now, but luckily (or is it?) my logic shout louder than my emotion. In this situation I really don't have much time and energy to get carried away with the illusion of the past. I hope can maintain it this way at least until the 'showtime' ended.

This is my first time sharing my personal stuff to the world. I have no idea how people will perceive this post, but having this 'adventure' really open a new chapter for me to read. If I can summary this chapter it will be "What ever you do with your life, please respect yourself & respect others."

The cliche is repeated.

Well, one thing for sure. Because of my father's condition some of my good friends decided and successfully quit their smoking habit, they even started to do routine exercise. Now that's what I meant by respecting yourself.

So far, I've seen 4,5 deaths during my stay at the ICU (the 0,5 was a false alarm from a resurrected poor guy). Observing the hospital procedure, listening to the heartbreaking family cry, watching the cold stainless steel coffin approach the death bed, I try to imagine as if it's my turn to face that. Rehearsing for the 'showtime'. Hoping I will be ready.


Life is suddenly a drama.
The only different is you can't leave your sit even if you don't like how the story goes.



Happy Birthday Father.

Away Notification

I will be away from designing paper toy for a few weeks because my father is hospitalized. Will surely update you all if I'm ready with new paper toy.Thank you and sorry to everyone who is following my blog.